Have you ever sat in meditation and felt too young, too weak, too naïve, or too unworthy to serve God in the area that you are called to serve? I know I have.
For a very long time, I felt that I was too young and not bold enough to serve God. Many times I would ask God, “Lord what do I tell your people?”
I would stand up in church during the testimony session and start by saying “I am a lady of few words.” I would then say my name and get back to my seat. Among the congregants, I was sure that there was someone who needed a word of encouragement from either a Bible verse or even from my own experiences. Nonetheless, I gave excuses that no one actually wanted to hear and neglected what God would have wanted me to do.
Later, at home, I would shout so hard and almost run out of breath, and my husband would call me and say, “A lady of few words you said.” I would walk out of his sight face down in embarrassment because deep down in my heart I knew that I was not doing my best in service to GOD. I knew that I was just making excuses to avoid God’s call over my life.
This situation got me reading my Bible as that is the best place to look for answers. I came across many verses that talked about serving God.
Jeremiah 1: 5-10 “Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, before you were born I set you apart; I appointed you as a prophet to the nations.”
“Alas, Sovereign Lord,” I said, “I do not know how to speak; I am too young.” But the Lord said to me, “Do not say, ‘I am too young.’ You must go to everyone I send you to and say whatever I command you. Do not be afraid of them, for I am with you and will rescue you,” declares the Lord. Then the Lord reached out his hand and touched my mouth and said to me, “I have put my words in your mouth. See, today I appoint you over nations and kingdoms to uproot and tear down, to destroy and overthrow, to build and to plant.”
1 Timothy 4:12 Don’t let anyone look down on you because you are young, but set an example for the believers in speech, in conduct, in love, in faith and in purity.
I knew that I had all that was required since I was already appointed. I also learnt that even the legends that we read of were never confident enough.
Moses also made excuses back in the day. According to him, he was not eloquent.
“O my Lord, I am not eloquent, neither before nor since You have spoken to Your servant; but I am slow of speech and slow of tongue.” So the Lord said to him, “Who has made man’s mouth? Or who makes the mute, the deaf, the seeing, or the blind? Have not I, the Lord? Now therefore, go, and I will be with your mouth and teach you what you shall say.” Exodus 4:10-11
Jonah had his excuses. So many servants of God, according to the Bible, had so much to say about what they could not do, just to avoid the call of God and push it as far away as they could.
After reading all about serving God, I now understand that no one is born ready to serve, that when God calls, he also equips the call. Just as he did Moses, He is ready to equip you, polish you and walk with you throughout your time of service to Him.
Even if you felt ready, you still cannot do it on your own. You need the spirit of God to guide you and His grace to overflow in you.
Go Forth and Serve – God Equips the Call.
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